I hate the feeling of guilt/disappointment bearing down on your shoulders from someone else's feelings...i never claimed to be Mr. Right, but im trying my hardest, giving you my best.

Im so used to having a job that i make enough money where i can buy whatever i wanted and whenever i wanted. But that was before i had rent and any other type of expense. Now im living on my own in an apartment at school and have rent, electricity, and groceries to pay for. This is all pretty new to me and its been a harsh reality. The good news is, its been a very good learning experience for me. I find myself in situations like these and always pull through and learn more about myself and my life.

Im glad to have people around me that keep pushing me and encouraging me to keep trucking. Its been a wild ride and i finally feel like ive got my feet underneat my body and know where im going. It will take time to get fully back on my feet and back to how things were, but since i learn best from experience ive got no one to blame but myself and im ok with that. :) thanks for sticking by my side friends.

Winter Wonderland

Well 2009 is almost over and it's been one hell of a year. I'm not sure what happened throughout the year, nor do I really want to try and remember it all. I had a tonnnn of fun this year and I'd attribute that to how fast it went. I'm approaching graduation from college and it's pretty scary. 2010 is going to be an interesting year to say the least.

Things have been going really good for me and I can't even complain at the current time. Even though I don't have as much money as I'd like or free time to spend doing whatever I want, but I would NOT change a single thing that has happened.

This is only part 1 of my 2009 recap. Part 2 will be coming within 3 days tops. This is just a little taste. :)

Christmas pictures/videos will be coming soon as well so be looking forward to that!

Until next time, take it easy.

See you soon.

Special K

YESSSS.

Well, well, well...

looks like SOMEONE has the motivation to update his shit every once in a while! sooooo. here it is.

i'm back home for break and loving it just as much as hating it. its a shitty catch-22 that i'm finding myself in. I need to be home to visit my family because you never know when bad things happen to good people. I hate being home because I feel much younger than I am. I've found a girl that makes the gloomiest of days bright with sunshine. It's a great feeling and I can't get enough...like Michael Jackson or Smashmouth. but anyway.

School is almost over, even though I have no idea what I'm going to do after college. Culinary school...Music industry...dead end job? who knows. we'll see what happens. time will tell i suppose.

missing a certain someone.

sincerely,
AK